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by: Laura at SnowflakeBabyGirl

After a failed transfer, this family found the courage to continue their journey and it led them to their beautiful daughter, MaKenna (read the full story here). Today Laura shares another bold step her family took moving forward by faith…

From the start, this last little embryo was a fighter. The embryology report revealed that during the freezing process, the power had gone out. It was just for a few moments, but it was during an important  step when an embryo is especially delicate and fragile. The doctors told us to pick new embryos. They  told us not to take the risk, but we decided to move forward by faith. Faith, that this child was meant for us. Hope, that God would do mighty things. Love, for a baby that we could only hold in our hearts.

We held the dream of this baby in our hearts until we took the next step, forward by faith, and I got to hold that one embryo in my womb.  Against all odds, the lone embryo survived the thaw and grabbed on tightly to mama’s belly.  For 10 weeks I carried this little one with all the faith, hope, and love I could muster. Devastating news at 14 weeks shattered me when a nurse told us it was all over – the baby was gone. She underestimated this child…and God. At 18 weeks, an ultrasound revealed a healthy baby boy, giving us the thumbs up, and letting us know everything would be okay.

“Dear Baby Boy, In just 12 short hours, God willing, we will take another step forward by faith and you will be in your mama’s arms.  I have sooo very much enjoyed carrying you around from a tiny little snowflake to the wiggly, squirmy little man you’ve grown into.  I will very much miss feeling you roll around in there and feeling that little foot jab me in my right side all day long.  Yet I can’t wait to see your little toes and touch those little feet, to see your chubby cheeks and stare into your eyes.  You truly are God’s gift to us – our little bonus baby.  It still seems so surreal that God would bless us not just once, but twice through the gift of embryo adoption.  I look at your sister and I am in awe of God’s plan for her – that He froze her and saved her just for us.  I can’t even fathom that God would not only save one sweet frozen baby for us, but two!  We are so very blessed. I love you so much, Mama.”

We took that final step, forward by faith, and baby Alex was born and placed in my arms…happy, healthy, and whole. I have now held him in my heart, my womb, and my arms. When he was born, we chose this song to be playing as he entered our world – to celebrate the triumphant culmination of our embryo adoption journey. It is done.  It is finished.  We have been blessed not only once but twice.  Our hearts are full, our family is complete.

“He’s Always Been Faithful” by Sara Groves

Morning by morning I wake up to find
the power and comfort of God’s hand in mine.
Season by season I watch him amazed,
in awe of the mystery of his perfect ways. .
All I have need of his hand will provide.
He’s always been faithful to me. .

I can’t remember a trial or a pain
he did not recycle to bring me gain.
I can’t remember one single regret in
serving God only and trusting his hand. .
This is my anthem, this is my song,
the theme of the stories I’ve heard for so long.
God has been faithful, he will be again.
His loving compassion, it knows no end. .

This article was adapted from an original post found here.